You know the expression, You Can’t See the Forest for the Trees? Well, it started to ring true for me this summer.
A series of events unfolded that made me question what I was doing and why I was doing it.
Anyone who has started a blog knows how much work and dedication it takes just to get things off the ground. You think, phew!, but then a different level of commitment is required to create new, interesting content week after week.
Perseverance and hard work have always been part of my life. I grew up in the prairies of Alberta where bale slinging, garden weeding and rock picking were just part of Saturday afternoon. I’m like my mom who’d rather be baking or cleaning out a closet on Sunday afternoon than laying with a book on a lounger. I’m a doer.
But, in April, something started to shift. My husband’s aunt (a dear friend of mine) ended up in the hospital. Visits back and forth (4 hours one way) meant weekends were tied up, and her health and well being were constantly weighing on my mind.
Months in the hospital went by. We realized she would never return home, and that meant getting her home ready to sell. Another weekend gone.
Where would she transition to from the hospital? Hours and hours spent on the phone, in meetings and running around. (To say our healthcare system needs a restructuring is an understatement!)
Yay, her house sells! Wait, what will we do with all of her belongings? We’ll figure that out this coming weekend…
Those of you who have followed my blog for a while now know I’m not an open book. It takes a lot of courage for me to open up about personal stuff on the web. But, when I started getting emails and messages asking if I was away or if something was going on, I knew it was time to say something. I knew I owed some sort of explanation for my inconsistency.
Yes, I was away. We just got back from our family vacation on Vancouver Island, and I’m feeling refreshed and have a million project ideas. Those will have to wait until after this weekend when we finally wrap up this house business. (Are you busy? Need any furniture or towels or sheets?)
Then we can change our focus from her stuff to her health.
After that, I need to address the whole issue of my new blog going live in July (yay!) and crashing just after (OMG!). We’ll save the details of that for another time…
So, what does all of this have to do with the business of blogging? Well, with many jobs you can fake it in times of hardship. You can putter along and come through the other side with most people not even noticing (or caring).
Blogging isn’t just about hard work. It requires constant creativity, inspiration and, hopefully, some originality. It takes focus and attention to detail. It involves planning, foresight and wearing many hats.
When you’re distracted or are being pulled in many different directions, readers can see through it.
That’s the scary part. It’s like writer’s block and you don’t know when it will finally lift. You start to think, is this where I close up shop like blogger X, Y and Z?
After doing some “tree clearing” the past couple of weeks, I’ve gained a new perspective. Sometimes we experience a shift in our lives that makes it hard to go back to the way things were. That’s okay. New chapters bring new meaning.
We need clouds and rain to really appreciate a blue, sunny sky.
Will I still be blogging? The answer is a resounding YES! At the end of the day I would chose it over and over again, and I don’t think that will change anytime soon.
Will I be sharing decorating, gardening and organizing posts? I’m sure of it. But, there may be a whole lot more that comes out of this experience.
One thing I won’t do is force what isn’t there. As smart as you are, I know you can see through it. That’s why I haven’t churned out posts for the sake of it. If I don’t feel it, I know it won’t resonate with you.
So, bear with me as the dust settles around here and I’m able to get my “new” blog up and running. I’m so looking forward to what comes after more than you know.
Thanks for sticking around and showing how much you care!